Anxiety Worry Nervousness Panic and Relief

Hi! Thanks for writing back, I was starting to think you didn't get my e-mail! Thank you for your compliments! It is really hard dealing with my mother...

I went to a neurologist with her the other day, and he said she was fine, and she could do all the things she says she can't. Her most important problem is really that she neglets her left side, and can´t see things to her far left, so it is dangerous for her to walk alone in the street, but she could do things at home! You can read the latest news in the forum about how my life just seems to be getting worse and worse...I took 2 weeks out of my work to rest, but I had to take her to doctor 2 times, so what rest do I get? It is awful to take her riding the buses, she talks too loud, everybody starts staring at us notecing how strange she is...She is now sleeping in her bedroom, I have to take her to another doctor tomorow... It is just making me so nervous....

You can use my name-Sara- to post the story, I have been using it in the forum. My boyfriend is the sweetest boy in the world. We have been together for more than 3 years. We shared an irresistible attraction the moment we met. His mother has a different illness than mine, he doesn't know much about it, but she was unpredictable, violent and had delusions... She used to tell him he was the cause of all her problems, that he being born (unplanned) had ruined her life. She is on medications now that allow her be almost normal. But he is still afraid to trust people, especially women, sometimes he is afraid I will turn out to be like his mother. But he is slowly overcoming that. He supports me so much and loves me so much, I never thought there could be such strong feeling. I never really loved anyone before him, I would do anything for him. I told him about the site, and that I posted my story here, we will read some of the stories posted together and talk about it. But it is hard for him to talk about his past, it makes him really anxious. 2 years ago he had a period were he had panic attacks and was very anxious all the time... It was awful, but he managed to overcome that without taking medication. He is afraid to have a panic attack, if he goes too deep in his feelings, but I want to do it with him, when he feels ready.

Now my mother is up telling that she can't sleep... I never get to have a quiet time! I am studying biochemistry, my internship is in molecular biology, I am studying cell division. I really like it, when I am not overwhelmed with anxiety... Thank you for making this site, it has really help me:

Sara